Today was an especially hard day for me. I went to the Navy recruiting office to ask the guys there what I was supposed to do with a package from the Navy Federal Credit Union that came in the mail. They made me call the toll free number to try and find out what it was that I was supposed to do with it. It was really a big mistake on their part because I ended up bawling like a big baby after that call. The lady on the phone said that the account was not under my name, therefore she couldn’t give me any kind of information on my husband’s account. I hung up the phone and the waterworks started. I wasn’t crying because I couldn’t get any information, but because I felt powerless and unable to do anything about anything. I felt more lonely and helpless than I ever have. I still haven’t heard a single thing from him, and I don’t know if he’s doing okay or what. The rent is due on the first, and I don’t even know if we’ll have the funds for it. I’m just worrying every day about everything and I’m giving myself headaches because of all the stress I’m putting myself through. The more I stress, the worse my headache gets. Then I stress about my headaches, which only makes things worse!

I’m tired of this, and I’m tired of everything. Being separated from my husband sucks. I need him here with me, to help me get through the tough days, like today. The kids were out of control today at school, and I think the “Healthy Buddy” program is going to go down the drain tomorrow. But that’s something that I don’t want to get into right now.

Oh yeah and the “Submit” button on the comment form doesn’t work in Firefox. But at this point I don’t feel like fixing it, so just tab and hit enter when you comment. For now, anyway. I need to get out of this mood that I’m in. There’s a dark cloud over my head, and I need to get rid of it.

 Filed under: Bitching and Moaning, Daily Life on February 27, 2008 | COMMENT