Man this week has just been hectic! It’s the last week of school and all my projects and research papers are now due! I had 32 pages of reflective journals due yesterday and man was that a tough one! I started at seven in the morning and finished just in time around 5:30 in the afternoon. I always tell myself that I won’t be a procrastinator anymore, but it’s just something that I can’t change about myself. 
The quest to lose weight is not going as well as I’d hoped. I’ve been exercising, and I’ve been good at being on track with that. It’s the eating that really is getting hard for me. My day always starts out great, but I usually end up eating tons of junk food by the end of the day. Like yesterday I had two slices of pizza at school. After that I went over to my grandma’s because they had a barbecue. I ate some more there, too. 
I’ve gained like ten pounds over the past few months, and that’s not cool anymore. Some of my clothes don’t fit as well anymore, either. 
What ever happened to my will power? I can’t seem to find it anymore. Every time I see some kind of delicious food, I can’t seem to say no like I used to.
This is gonna be a tough one.
The past week has been hectic. Rob and I have finally worked through our problems. We discussed everything that was wrong with our relationship, including things about me. We have made a promise to each other to work on our faults, and he has promised to change his jealous ways. He admitted that he really had changed a lot since the beginning of our relationship, and he just didn’t realize how he was hurting us both. We postponed the wedding until after I graduate from school, which is in May 2008. Our wedding will be at the end of June, if things go well that is. Obviously if he doesn’t change, he knows I will not go through with the wedding. Why marry someone that will be so jealous of everyone that he turns out to be possessive and angry all the time? That is not the man I fell in love with, and not the man I want to spend the rest of my life with either.
He’s also agreed to give me space. He realizes that he was only suffocating me, and he knows now that we don’t have to spend every waking moment together. I love him, but sometimes I want to hang out with my own friends, you know?
I just didn’t want to end things altogether and then spend the rest of my life wondering if I made a mistake. At least this way, we gave our relationship another chance. We’re also going to be more honest with each other. I would always eat my feelings, which was why it took a year for me to tell him that his change was seriously messing up our relationship. And when I did, I exploded. That’s not really healthy, either. We’re also meeting with our marriage sponsors, and talking about this stuff has been really good for us. We have another session with them next week, and we’re both looking forward to it. It’s comforting to know that we’re not the only couple to have gone through this. Our marriage sponsor couple went through a similar phase when they were dating, and yet they’re still happily married thirty years later. It gives me strength and hope that everything will turn out okay with us.
Amber, Mizzy, and Kelly…thank you so much for your kind words. They made me feel so much better, and I appreciate the fact that you were willing to listen to my problems. You are all great friends, and even better people. Your words meant so much to me. Thank you.
I also finally got my car back. 
He’s as good as new, maybe even better. The only thing that bothers me is the funny noise it’s making when it hits bumps. My brother, who works at the dealership where they fixed my car, said it’s nothing important but to bring it in on my next day off so that they can fix whatever is loose. Other than that, my car is perfect. They are also going to fix my previous bumper too, so that I can have a spare bumper. Hopefully I will never have to use it though. 
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